What must I do to be saved? Believe and pray this prayer. OK did that, what do I DO next? Go to church, read your bible and pray. OK got that what next? The great commission is next, so I set out to fulfil that and never took time for my heart. That seems selfish to take time out for my heart, I should sacrifice myself to God and church. Sure I took time to play along the way but not without a heaping dose of pulpit induced guilt for every day of vacation. Heaven forbid I miss church, or even worse an outreach. And so evangelical Christianity chained us to the great commission, never being able to fulfill it. I couldn't win enough to Christ, give enough time or money to complete that task. It might as well be called the great to do list. No matter how successful the event there was always something else to do, The fields are white to harvest, blah blah blah, (sic). So I took up the words of a raspy voiced pop star and sang them to the church as I left. "Unchain my heart, let me go you don't really love me any more". The church never really loved me it just needed me. Well I didn't need it to abuse me anymore so I left and partied long enough to realize I didn't like parties either. So I went and pursued the things I loved, Mountains and wheels, camping and water, friends and family, not even thinking that God would want to do any of those things with me. I went camping the other day, the first annual Desirae camp out with 20 of our friends, I went looking for some fire wood and as I wandered the lush forest God spoke to me "Hello Son of Adam so good to see you." Then as I grinned at his presence, more clear and more powerful than anything on earth, He said, "I love you". It about bowled me over my legs weakened and my tears flowed, God was happy in my presence and I was lost in love never to be the same.